The Princess is a Pauper

I am worried about my future. I have tons of loans - more loans than my salary can handle. I mean technically, if I thought like most young people, I'd be content to spend all of my salary on a nice apt. in the city and still have enough to pay back my loans. But, I'm not most people. My boyfriend and I realize how important it is to save and to own instead of renting. So my dilemma is that on my current salary, how do I save aggressively but still have enough to take care of my loans and credit card payments? It's tough.

We actually saved $14K over the course of our 11 month relationship. Our intention was to start building so that we'd have a down payment for a home. That is chump change, but it's a start. We actually purchased a condo in his hometown - on a total whim. It was too beautiful to pass up - loft with floor to ceiling windows on two sides (we have the corner suite), penthouse, lake views, 10 minute drive and 15 minute subway ride to downtown. It's lovely. We never would be able to afford anything like that here. We are definitely moving back there in a couple of years --- maybe sooner. His mom is old and she needs us. We want to raise our kids there. Anyway, well we'll have to take out a 'bridge' loan to cover the rest of the down payment (approximately $23K more). I am really excited about this investment, but I don't know if that's a wise thing to do since I already have so much debt.

So, whatever, I have to come up with some type of part-time job to supplement my income until I can move on to a higher-paying position. I wonder what I can do? This is the absolute worst time of my life. I really wish I never went to law school. It's absolutely not worth it, especially since I am not even practicing. The only good thing about it is that I never would have met my honey if not for law school. So, I guess I shouldn't complain too much. Is honey worth my $100K + debt? Well, thought of in those terms ... Yes.

I'm really in a messed up situation. If I was rich I could handle all this debt. If I was poor, I most likely wouldn't have tried to achieve this much in life and even if I did the government would have covered my costs. Instead I am stuck in the middle of the middle class, with seemingly no way out. How the hell short of winning the lottery or getting a good cash settlement in my case do I get out of this predicament? This sucks royally. I don't feel like a princess today ... I feel like a pauper.